Today was Alyssa Roze’s official due date. Numb I guess best describes how I am feeling. This morning while my husband and son laid asleep next to me I held my daughter in my arms and just wept. I didn’t think I would be able to stop. Just barely over the 5lb mark and over a month old. I couldn’t imagine having her today knowing that the doctor told me while I was carrying her she stopped growing and began losing weight. Smaller than 3lbs 13 oz at full term? Seems crazy to me. I am so thankful to have her. Seeing her open her eyes and look around lights up my day. People tell me all the time how strong I am, and although I try my best for my children, my strength doesn’t even begin to compare to my daughters. We have a tough road ahead of us, yet it will ensure a longer road to travel upon together as a happy healthy family.
